char

a year ago from today since you’ve been gone

i am missing you, i’m feeling all alone

visiting your grave i try my best to be brave

with a broken heart i try not to fall apart

bcoz i know you must be watching from above

and so i’m smiling sending you thoughts of love

but today my heart is aching, i hide it well

coz i don’t want anyone watching

watching me cry, cry a river for you

i wonder if i cry enough will you come back?

come back and play badminton with me

i promise i won’t argue, i’ll just let you be

i am dreaming again with my eyes open

i think i’ll close them now and sleep

sleep is where i scape this bittersweet reality

because in my sleep you are there

Relinquishing Fear:  What are we to do with our fear, our anger, and the clouds that cover the love inside us? Relinquish them to God. He removes the veils that hide our true self, the we might stand forth as He created us to be: His beloved children, the lights of the world.

There is only one reason for (y)our existence on Earth - for the purpose of raising the vibration of the whole.

Therefore Be A Light Unto The Darkness.

I hold it true, whate’er befall;

I feel it, when I sorrow most,

‘Tis better to have loved and lost

Than never to have loved at all.

~ Alfred, Lord Tennyson ~ "in memoriam", 27

"Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices in the truth.

It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails." ~ 1 corinthians 13:6-8 THE BIBLE

‘"Which is the greatest of all the commandments?"’

Jesus replied, "Love the Lord your God with all your heart, mind and strenght, and love your neighbour as yourself."’

~ Mark 12:28 ~ THE BIBLE

just like a shooting star

i wish to fly to

wherever you are

this night, let’s get together

and hold each other tight

i’ll be waiting for you in my dreams

happy birthday daddy

when i think of you i smile even though it’s hard sometimes

when i remember you, i remember a loving, caring, kind, sweet, most gentle soul i have ever known, and i send thoughts of love and gratitude to God for you

hard as i try, i cannot express enough how much i miss you and how much i love you

there are no moments in a day that passes by that i don’t think of you, sending you my love and wishing you all the happiness you deserve

i am so lucky and so blessed to have loved you and to have been loved by you

and though it hurts very much to not have you by my side anymore, i will always cherish our love and our memories together for the rest of my life

i take one look at our son and i see you, i feel you, i hear you gently laughing telling me how much you love us…not even death can truly separate us for you are and will always be in my heart just as i am in yours, even now

your love, your memories, keeps a smile on my face even though my heart is aching 

and when i think of you i can’t help but smile because i see you smiling back

i smile because you love me

and because i love you

As I sit here and think about all that I am missing,

I’ve got everything that I could ever ask for.

My days are spent wondering how you’ve been and where you are now, but the more that I think of you the more that I feel lonely and blue, can’t you see, oh why couldn’t you stay with me, oh how I miss you holding me tight…

Just being with you made everything better and bright, I want to always have you by my side for you always made everything alright but now without you here, my heart starts to cry…

How will I ever go on, how will I stay strong?

Do you see Honey that without you my soul is lonely?

talk to me

tell me where you are

let me be your companion once again

let’s fly across the moon

and beyond the stars

let us remember

let our soul remember

who we are…

by:

Guy Sebastian

I see you smiling every day

Looking back at me

Like nothing ever changed

I swear I heard you call my name

But in reality

It’s just your picture in a frame

Why am I here

Without you

When there was so much left for us to do

How could the angels come so soon

*chorus*

If I could make Heaven wait

I’d find a way to ask God if He had

Made some mistake

If He’d saved your wings

For another day

If only I could make Heaven wait

All your clothes are hanging up

Not a thing’s been touched

I left it all the same

I wish that I could press rewind

And go back in time

Just to see your face again

Coz I miss you

I need you

I’m so alone without you here with me

You are the reason that I breathe

And every night I search for your star in the sky

(asking why oh why)

Lord knows I would trade in my life for

A chance to say goodbye.

One day when God felt generous, He looked at me and smiled.

“Since I feel so magnanimous, I’d like to give you something child”.

He asked me what I wanted

I said, “Oh really nothing more, You’ve already done so much already”, He said, “that’s what God is for”.

“You have been pretty good”, He said.

“I know there’s not much that you seek, I will pick a little something, just to make your life complete”.

With great anticipation, I looked forward to my gift.

I wondered what God had in mind that could give me such a lift.

“This gift”, God said, “you realize, bears some responsibility. So if you accept my present, you must be willing to agree…”

“…to offer unconditionally, a section or a part, of more than half of you, the larger portion of your heart”.

“Okay God”, I answered.

“Since in you, I always trust, I’ll meet your obligation, in the manner that I must”.

To myself, I thought, “Wow what a gift!” for so much of me God has asked. Now what could be so valuable that my share was more than half…?

With both hands I sought my gift. I still did not have a clue.

Then God put your hand in mine, and said His gift to me was You!

you see me cry

you hear me laugh

you brush my cheek

with your left hand

there’s something i don’t understand

oh how can i feel you

without seeing you?

just for today will it be ok

that i ask why

why did you have to go?