char

eleven months today

since you passed away

time will heal, they say

when will i heal?

i hide my pain well

no one sees my sorrow

as i put on a brave face

and talk all about tomorrow

only i hear a silent cry

a cry for yesterday

to be today once more

that morning i woke up

with you beside me

in the middle of winter

i was all warm inside

as we kissed goodbye

and went our way

i smiled and thought

"oh what a perfect day"

my husband and my bestfriend

i couldn’t ask for more

sending you love and kisses

i shut my pc and head out in traffic

later to find that you too thought

this was a perfect day

the most perfect day

to go Home and be with God

char80angel@yahoo.com.au

as i awake this morning

my heart sang a song

a song of love long ago

about you and i

i remember it all well

as if it was only yesterday

when you and i fell in love

thanking someone above

for the gift that was us

i will remember you

will never forget you

will forever be grateful

that we had found each other

my heart to you i give

and now the life i live

is through you and for him

our precious son

our gift for each other

a gift from God

my mind is full of questions

you went from

here to there

but where is there?

are you someplace beautiful

like heaven?

where is heaven?

are you loved?

do you have someone to love?

i love you

and i know you’re always just there…

and i am here

with your memories

some nights i can’t sleep

i lay still in the dark

wondering where you are

trying hard to remember

when you used to hold me close

where are you my love

are you somewhere above

looking down watching over me?

i’m sorry if i’m crying

i’m really trying

trying hard to keep smiling

i wonder will time

really heal my hurt

from losing you?

char80angel@yahoo.com.au

cha80angel@yahoo.com.au

you look deep into my eyes

you see the soul within

you hold my hand as

you help me stand

you go where i go

you’re not afraid

to ease my pain

you’re my one true friend

and i thank you for letting me

be who i am and now

when i look into your eyes

i am not afraid

to see what you see

because what you see

is me…

char80angel@yahoo.com.au

judge me not

i ask of you

for you do not know

what lies deep within

my heart and soul

for you do not see

the tears that i cry

you do not hear

the sound of my heart breaking

i ask for your understanding

for your compassion

for your forgiveness

and your friendship

if this is all too much

for me to be asking from you

then i ask only for one thing

please judge me not

char80angel@yahoo.com.au

i am sorry

i know that i have hurt you

i really didn’t mean to

i hope someday you’ll

forgive me because

i really miss your friendship

even if it was only for a while

i will remember and cherish

the brother in you

that i once had

char80angel@yahoo.com.au

i miss your smile

your sweet embrace

your gentle face

i miss who i am

when i was with you

i miss us

my love

char80angel@yahoo.com.au

there was no goodbye

there was no goodnight

the night that you left

you simply closed your eyes

and rested

rest well my love

and know that

we are only apart

but for a while

after all we never said

goodbye